My beloved Karma died on Wednesday in the most tragic of circumstances and I am completely shattered as at the end of the day I was responsible for protecting her in a country that has many pitfalls. The guilt I am carrying is overwhelming as is the anger towards those ( not family ) that could have prevented this happening with the smallest of actions had they just thought with some commonsense because her death could so easily have been avoided .
Karma was such an amazingly intuitive dog to train and so affectionate to be with that I feel like I may never see a dog like this come my way again. She was my first German Shepherd and I poured all of my spare time into training and loving her and she was a true family member. In a strange way, Karma was also my little link to Australia. I always had a dog back there and just having one here in Cambodia finally made it feel normal for me again and she was someone I could speak to when no-one else could bloody well listen. This is just such a horrible and unnecessary waste of such a promising dog. Even Leakhana,who I thought was mostly ambivalent towards Karma, is completely devastated. I rang my friend Bryan as we had to make some immediate plans and Karma now rests in a shady spot under a Mango and Banana grove down in Takmeo. There are plenty of workers coming and going to keep her company and I can see her whenever I want.
Right now I am researching how I can get another quality German Shepherd because I know I will never own any other type of dog and I know we just got lucky with Karma being available when she was. Despite the expense, I am looking at maybe importing a pure-bed GSD from Malaysia. I don’t know if its too early to even be thinking about it or whether its disrespectful to Karma’s memory or whether I should wait and grieve properly. I just know that if I stop for too long to think about Karma and this whole mess I break down and start crying and maybe getting back on the horse will take away that pain. I try and take some solace knowing that we had only just recently returned from a wonderful week long family holiday together and Karma was at her happiest .